Being myself?

Am I myself? Cant believe myself have phobia ... over??? MIL... Why?? Have to ask her why.... Or Am I over protective over Isaac? But he is my darling. I am a first time mother, there are do and dont in my list. I want to provide the best for him with all my ways and means. Ellis mentioned to me, in bible.. there is a parable of a merciful servant.. What is a merciful servant.. Is to forgive and forget 77 times... Then I have to jot down 77 times.. No ah LOL ... How many times should I forgive my bro when he sins against me?? Jesus say.. I tell you, not seven times but seventy seven times.. 77 times means to forgive endlessly.. To have a forgiving heart... Does it sound difficult to you? Think about it.. No matter how sinful this person did those things to you, you have to forgive him and be a merciful servant. First thing came to my mind, if I forgive, will this person appreciate? Did bible teach us, is there return when I forgive? Can I achieve that teaching of Jesus?
There is another phrase.. The anger of man does not achieve the righteousness of God, it will only destroy the quality of personal lives, marriage and our health. But there are lots of questions in my head... In bible.. God asked us to obey and honor our parents. If our parents are in the wrong, do we still obey and honor them? I know.. I have to be a merciful servant, by the end of the day... I have to forgive and forget, as long I have done my part, I have achieve god's teaching. To conclude.. It takes time..